How do you get over it?

[martelvonc]

fabricdragon has been sharing her travels on the path of working towards a cleaner home and this made me think about my own path.

When I finally have an unusual clear spot that has not been that way in recent memory, I've found something odd. The sight of the "less" makes me happy but then later I start to feel anxiety about it for no discernible reason.

Is it because I'm afraid I've now given away what I might need someday?
Is it guilt for having acquired things that were not the best choice for our needs?

I don't know how to reconcile the feeling. I should be relieved especially after a trip to a thrift shop to drop off a donation. I would never just throw these things away. I will do almost anything to donate or outright give it away for free. The stuff is a burden on my mind, sitting by the front door, until I get it out of the house.

On television and in the magazines, you see clean, clear, clutter free homes. I want that for myself and my family but when I achieve it, it makes me feel uncomfortable. Like I know it won't stay that way so why did I bother? Is this self-defeating behavior? I haven't been cluttering up again. It's staying clean but why the guilty feeling about having a clean area?

The family is happy with the changes. I should be too, right?

Comments

[cbellfleur.livejournal.com]

Our house has been in CHAOS (Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome) for years. I know a lot of it is my fault - I'm reluctant to get rid of anything. It's just overwhelming to think about digging through the mess. Sometimes I imagine that I'll come home one day and it will magically be cleaned up.

By the way, when we stayed with you for KASF, your house was fine!

[martelvonc.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

I've found it needs to happen one small bit at a time. Trying to do plan a whole day to do it all just makes my brain all splody'.

I have found though that I have less housework to do because it's easier and faster to dust, clean, vacuum etc. the neat places.